sumtime i hate myself

sumtime i hate myself..
becoz i alwaz acts like "acuh tak acuh".....
especially in study week..
just imagine i worked hard for entire semester but ruined all the effort in a glimpse....
in study week..all the mood to revise gone...
huhuhuhu...
even takde mood n malas..
tapi paksa juga study ...
but still cant memorized all the stuff,formula..
ye r..mungkin sbb tak ikhlas nk study ni..huhuhu..
plus ngan sakit belakang yang sangat2 sakit....
epa x boley duk lame2...
sakit belakang because sport injury waktu kat mrsm dulu..huhuh...
tak sampai sejam pun dah sakit..
so bile dah rase sakit..belajar sambil baring la pulak..
tapi bila dah baring,epa tido la pulak...huhhuhu.....
mmg xdew mood langsung camni kan..huhuhu..
tapi bile pikirkan kembali aish..kalu berterusan camni...
bilalah agaknya nk grad...huhuhu..nak grad awal..nak keje awal..nak adew duet awal..
then nk kawen jugak awal..hahahhaha...(padahal calon pun tarak =p)

oh apa nk jadik ni wahai cik epa ku sayang..berusaha sementara masih adew masa..nnt kalu terlambat..regret pun tak guna....ntahlah..kadang2 sedar yang kene rajin..tapi asek camtuh jugak..huhu..ape la nk jadik cik epa ni..???huhuh..